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The blood applied: Tetelestai
“The angel said to the women, “Do not be afraid, for I know that you are looking for Jesus, who was crucified. He is not here; he has risen, just as he said. Come and see the place where he lay.”
Matthew 28:5-6
He is Risen indeed🤍☀️
By the cross we have been forgiven, by his blood we are redeemed. By his resurrection, we have been set free!
Oh what a beautiful hope it is to trust in Jesus!
This Holy Week has probably been the most impactful for me so far in my walk with the Lord. The death he endured, the mocking, the betrayal is all so so heart-wrenching to think about. Yet he knew what would happen to him, and he still chose to go through all of it for us. Love so deep. Mercy and grace literally poured out for us. Jesus also knew we would sin and he knew the weight of that sin. His body brutally broken for us; but that was not the end! He overcame death by his glorious resurrection, to save us from the burden of our sins, to give us hope for an everlasting future, freedom, victory and peace that surpasses all understanding. You are never too broken for Jesus Christ to make new. What an overwhelming joy that is to believe. Of course there will be days of struggle, brokenness, hurt, fear, chaos or grief, but because we are blood bought children of the King, that doesn’t last forever. We have hope, a beautiful purpose, and can be in relationship with him. Nothing, not even death, can defeat our God. That same power lives in us when we choose to have faith. When we choose to let him into our worlds, we gain so much more than we could ever even begin to imagine. I know that Jesus is with me, he’s experienced my brokenness, all my pain, all my wrongs. Yet he still will always love me and has never failed. God’s plan for redemption starts with a simple heart of seeking out Jesus. The one who paid it all.
Earlier in my writing, I claimed that this has been the most impactful of Holy Weeks I’ve had. That is because I’ve been wrecked by an overwhelming love of Jesus. A clearer picture of the gospel, and a personal revival of my walk in the Holy Spirit. My prayer is that if you are reading this, and have faith in him that he will bring you freedom too.
Surrendered & Hungry
Matthew 14:13-19
Jesus feeds the five thousand with five loaves of bread & two fish.
I’ve always been in awe of this miracle in the Bible. Jesus saw they were hungry and he answered the call. It helps me remember to be hungry for him and his helping hands. What a blessing it is to know the Lord will not only physically feed you but spiritually never leave you hungry as well if you search for him alone. In hunger, I await for you Lord, in trust that you will provide. You are the answer to all my needs, troubles and worries. You comfort me, feed me and clothe me all my days. Even when I run away from your plans, you love me still because with you, I can never outrun grace. You keep me alive and breathing, you’ve numbered my days into the heavens. I can’t wrap my head around your love and mercy , yet I choose to believe. In that I find peace that surpasses my understanding. Even when I’m drowning in fear, chaos and trying to control. You tell me to let go. Fall into your arms, not to worry. You say daughter of the most high, I have a purpose for you. I will come through in every circumstance, keep your heart hungry for me and I will provide🤍
Dear 2025, From 2024
Dear 2024,
You were one heck of a year. There were times of great pain, loss, sadness, grief, fear, chaos and heartbreak. But there were also great times of joy, freedom, healing, love, laughter, hope and light. There were times for endings, yet times for new beginnings and blessings. Old and new friendships to cherish and loved ones to hold near. But most importantly in the midst of everything there was Jesus. He taught me to forgive, heal and lean on him alone. I also learned that my identity can only come from him, that I am fully known and deeply loved. I don’t have to hide anything from the one who truly sees my face. When I seek the Lord and his plans , I find refuge, comfort and peace in the middle of every feeling, emotion or circumstance. I can come to him daily and surrender anew. I don’t have to be perfect to be wonderfully created. Trying is winning. Healing is hard but oh so well worth it. There are days when I’m still healing and learning to walk in his presence, but like I said, trying is winning. True peace can only come from above not from within, by my actions or from my situations. If I chose to pick up my cross and lay my pain and worries at the foot of Jesus, he will grant the desires of my heart. Trusting in him and his plan for my life will only continue to bring me joy and contentment. Relying on his strength to preserve makes me an overcomer in every season. In 2025, I choose to believe in God. I choose to believe in the greater things. I choose to believe in love. I choose to believe in more healing and more freedom. I choose to believe in an unimaginably beautiful purpose for my life and my path. Even when things get difficult, I choose to lean on the Lord in everlasting love. I believe I will grow, make new connections, new memories, and find my source of inspiration, light and identity in He who created me and brought me through the trials of my life. I believe there will be more trials, hurt, and heartache. But I will also choose to believe that good things will come out of that. Thank you 2024 for all the things you were and all the things that you were not. Dear 2025, I am excited to see what you have in store for me and the people around me. And just like that, a beautiful yet unique chapter comes to an end. Here’s to the start of a new page, 2025!
Seen
I saw these boots at my local antique store…
Crazy to say but I guess they are “old enough”
I had the same pair as a little girl, down to the rhinestones and everything.
I should’ve bought the boots, but I instead was hesitant, because the little girl I was in those boots. She was innocent and full of life, life of dreams to fill those boots of as rhinestone cowgirl would.
Until the darkness of the sinful world came into play, she wasn’t so innocent or full of life anymore. Because just a few years later, in her princess tent she set up in her room for her first play date with a so-called friend, she learned what darkness felt like. Her innocence had been stolen, by the fingertips of a young seven year old girl. I wish I could tell go back in time and tell her to scream , but she froze.
This story of these poor boots ends in tragedy. But GOD knows. He showed up. In the nick of time, she understood why. She was born to wear those boots. To show up for all the girls who have been through abuse. She didn’t know it at the time, but the Holy Spirit was teaching her how to be strong. So that ten years to the date, she could show up, and have the courage to share her story. Peace she made with herself, seeing those boots for display, on her 24th birthday.
I’ve never shared publicly how deep those wounds are, of the girl who walked in those boots. But I am ready to unpack that one story at a time. In hopes that the right person will see. To felt seen by a God that can and will redeem. What the enemy stole, the Lord will use for your strength and for his glory. What a beautiful thing it was, to walk in those boots. To have child like faith restored at the age of twenty four. Ten years after it all ended. Our God is witty, on purpose and on time. Always he cares, shows up and walks in our shoes with us.
I’m not sad for that little girl anymore, I’m hopeful that the young adult she’s become will help those near to Jesus. This is no longer a story with a tragic ending , it is a story of victory and overcoming all obstacles the enemy has thrown her way.
God thank you, thank you for the girl in those pink rhinestone cowgirl boots. Thank you that she is loved.🩷
The oysters & the flesh
Did you know that it can take up to seven years for a pearl to develop and grow? In the same light, it is very rare to find a natural grown pearl in an oyster, especially one with the right shape, size and color desired for most jewelry.
What if we were to learn something about how God sees us, from something as simple as an oyster. Since God created everything, I’m sure that 7 years isn’t a complete coincidence for how long it can take a pearl to form. 7 is highly favored number in the Bible. It is mentioned 394 times just in the Old Testament alone. Overall the number is referred to in the Bible nearly 700 times. Seven is seen as a symbol for unity, completeness, perfection and Holiness.
What a beautiful thing it is that a perfect pearl can take that amount of time to develop naturally.
In our case, as humans, of course we are far more valuable than a pearl. Yet God takes his time with us as well. Whether that be one day, 7 years or 70 for sake of example. Good things, beautiful things, take time to grow, mature and develop. With the Lord those things in us can turn into something so special and far more beautiful than the most precious pearl.
Maybe you are in a season where you feel like you aren’t worthy, beautiful or valuable. But Jesus wants to say enough is enough! Do not listen to the lies of the enemy any longer! You are more important, beautiful, precious and loved than any pearl in the universe. Especially by the most high God! It says in Matthew 6:25-34 that we are much more valuable than the birds in the air, yet he cares for them. With that same care plus much more, he does care for us personally. And in the same verses Jesus states that God dresses the flowers of the fields, with such beauty. How much more beautiful do you think you are to him- compared to a little flower lily in the ground?! Oh so much more.
My final point would be to think about how few pearls actually get picked for the harvesting of jewelry making. In naturally made pearls that number is one out of ten-thousand. When I think of that fact, I think of our world today. How many people will decide to actually follow Jesus, be in his presence and want to be like him, bringing his kingdom on earth as it is in heaven- well the answer to that is unfortunately also very few. For context Matthew 9:35-38, for the harvest is plentiful but the workers are few. As well as in Matthew 7:13-14 , narrow is the gate that leads to everlasting life. These verses I believe are meant to help us understand that good things sometimes don’t always come easy, but to take heart, lean into the Word of the Lord, fervent in prayer, walking in step with the Holy Spirit. In the end , the outer shell of an oyster is not usually the prettiest, yet what’s inside can be worth far much more, and absolutely beautiful. The same can be true of us, in spirit. God created us beautiful from the outside and in. Yet at the very end of our days , what matters most is found on what was within and what we are called to do with that.
Part of my testimony: 1
A girl who’s seen it all, wonderfully redeemed 