I want to getaway
Out of this dark place
1.2.3…
I count my breath
To remind myself I’m still here
Stuck in this nothingness
I’m tried of being duplicitous for people who will never get it
For you , I say I’ll put on a show
Dance around with my happy face
But really at this point is love enough?
Almost , I could say the answer to that question I ask myself is no..
So 1.2.3…
I’ll hold my breath
God forbid I speak the truth
So I’ll let my self drown in the pain just long enough
to remember to pull my head up above the current for a little while longer each time
Catch a glimpse of the shattered shells at the bottom of the ocean floor
I ask my self again , Isn’t it lovely some people will never know what it’s like to be that shell ?
Thrown away and broken a million times over again
So duplicitous I stand cowardly over my own body like a ghost but I’m still alive
Oh , and as for the people, never tell them how you truly feel
Validation will never be rewarded for those with feelings like these
Take a deep breath and let go
Just let it go and run with the wind from the roller coasters inside your head
1.2.3! I count it’s time to smile for the cameras , be yourself they say , everything will be okay , you just need a getaway.
A girl who’s seen it all, wonderfully redeemed 